My eyes are burning
and threatening tears
Are You there?
Do You care?
I sigh as I hear nothing
Knowing I have probably
pushed Him so far out
to the limits
of my self-built
“safety zone”
“He isn’t safe,
but He’s good.”
I fear the silence
Not wanting to be honest with myself
why I do
I fear I won’t hear You
I fear I’m alone
So I fill every orifice
with clutter
and noise
to drone out my fears
Til I’m deaf
The last thing I want to be
Deaf to You
And my heart breaks.
~Me
aw. everyone’s a little a.d.d., he knows, he made us. and is smitten with us all the same. with you. those lulls make the rekindlings so intimate, though. lose yourself in him <3